Sam's Blog

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I freaked out yesterday. It wasn't a huge deal. Not really that big of deal at all to some people. But I was grabbing food after the USC Animation screening last night and I reach into my purse to grab my camera to take pictures of everybody and then, bam! It hit me hard. My camera wasn't in its case. WTF?! I was so cracked out yesterday having only a few hours of sleep and couldn't remember if I brought it with me when I was leaving LMU's Law School campus. Hmm...I was speechless. I tried to remember so hard where I put it, but I couldn't remember. I knew that I took pictures on campus but not during lunch. I was going crazy. I was getting anxious.

I got home and checked at my desk and on the coffee table, the only likely places it would be and nothing. I was overwhelmed with disappointment. I felt so stupid. How could I carelessly misplace my camera, one of my most favorite things in the world? It felt like I had lost a child, seriously. I know that sounds ridiculous, but I was going crazy. I knew that it was replacable, but I had grown accustom to all of the features and settings of it and it was so easy to use. I loved it. Sigh. After gaining my composure, I became more rational and decided to call the people that I was with that morning to see if they saw it. And soon enough, I found out that Angela had it. Whew! She is a saint! I was so relieved. Lesson learned. I am so thankful and lucky. It's just the little things in life that make me happy, I guess.

On a different note, I will be turning 25 very soon. I don't really know if I'm happy or sad about this. I don't feel like I'm 25, but then again, I still think that I am still 21. Now entering my mid-twenties, I feel a lot better than I did a year ago, way more focused than two years ago, and way more solid than three years ago (in almost all aspects of life - family, friends, career). I guess I am getting older. If only I could cook more and want to clean more. That would be fantastic. I guess it's not so bad. I've always been the youngest ever since I was born. Since my birthday is so late in the year, most people have already turned 25. They survived and I know that I will too. For some reason I am not nervous or anxious about it at all. I think it's denial mainly. But on the upside, I can legally rent a car soon. Woohoo!!

SATC quote of the day:
"Can you get to the future if your past is present?" - Carrie (Season 6 - The Perfect Present)