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"I have become comfortably numb."

Permalink 11:12:30 pm, by sam Email , 1492 words   English (US)


Link: http://www.sonymusic.com/artists/PinkFloyd/

This weekend was a bit hazy in that I didn’t have any concept of time or dates or anything like that. I had energy, even when sedated with pain killers. I slept a lot at night and didn’t feel the need to take naps during the day because, well, I suck at it. I don’t take naps well at all. Anyway, on Saturday, I met up with M and her little sister (who really isn’t very little anymore, considering the fact that she is 20 years old already) and we went to Santee Alley again to find some good deals. This time, they had the brown purse that I wanted and I got a good deal on it. We went to The Grove afterwards and ran into Nate randomly. It was a very pleasant surprise and he joined us for a late lunch at the newly opened Cheesecake Factory there. I was able to eat some food at that point. I had some pad thai and the noodles were fine, but the chicken was a bit hard to chew, but I was able to manage because I was so hungry. (Celebrity sightings there included Sean Lennon and Cheryl Hines, from Curb Your Enthusiasm) I later hung out with James that night. I hadn’t seen him since his birthday and it was awesome to see him again. We hung out with some of his brothers from his fraternity and we saw the band Blue Floyd, a Pink Floyd cover band at the House of Blues on Sunset. I love the venue, but it was so loud and the band was intense. They were pretty good though and I was impressed. We also went to Carney’s, right up the street from the HOB and it was a very interesting experience. It was a lot more casual than I thought and a lot cheaper. I wish that I was able to eat something there besides an ice cream sandwich. I am sure that I will go back there again. Their chili fries looked yummy. On our way to the restaurant, we passed by Saddle Ranch and there was a large group of people sitting outside on the patio area, two of which were JC Chasez (who is now my very first N’Sync member sighting and my favorite bandmember) and he was sitting across the table from the actor Shane West, who is now a regular on the show ER. Very weird that they were hanging out together, but they are young and in Hollywood, so I guess they are all friends somehow. Anyway, it’s always interesting hanging out with James. There are so many things that I don’t know about him from the past few years, but his interests always stay the same. I am glad that it is that way. He usually fills me in on the most important details about his life and I guess that’s all that matters. I am glad that he is happier with his life now. He was so unhappy a year ago. But things are working out and I am happy for him.

One of my uncles was visiting this weekend and I went to my dad’s house to hang out and say hello. Since I was still heavily medicated, my brother had to pick me up and I took him to Hurry Curry, since he had never had Japanese curry before. I was able to eat the chicken cutlet curry with rice. I could tell that I was improving and was slowly able to eat more solid food. I went home and hung out with the family. My sister, Nakara, left for Mexico City and since I argue with her the most, it was a relatively nice and drama free visit. I get along with my other siblings just fine. I was able to visit with my uncle and aunt and their daughter (my cousin) who is going to get married next month. Things never really change at home, but I was glad that I was able to sleep on a comfortable bed this time as opposed to the crappy guest bed that I always get when I go home. One major difference was that my family, for the first time in a really long time, commented on the fact that I lost weight. It’s funny because I don’t think that I lost any or much at all, but I haven’t weighted myself in a long time. It was kinda nice to hear because I was so used to them saying that I gained weight every time that I would visit. My family is very straightforward about things like that, especially my grandma. It takes a toll on your self esteem after a while, but then I got used to it. I think it was the no eating solid foods because of my surgery that helped perhaps. Anyway, we didn’t really do much actually. Everyone had their own schedules and I was able to relax and watch some Cambodian TV. My dad just got two Cambodian stations installed on the satellite dish, so he was very excited and always makes everyone watch it. I caught the end of what seemed like a Pol Pot documentary and it made me depressed. This morning, I raided my sister’s closet, or whatever was left of my sister’s closet. She took a lot of clothes with her to Mexico, but I was able to pick out a few cool things. It was just like shopping, but I didn’t have to pay for anything! Though I will have to give them back in a few months, it still feels like new clothes to me. I miss living with my sisters and with Amy and Angela because we all used to share clothes all of the time. Sigh.

I came back to LA today and Nate and I were talking about trying to have a BBQ today at his place somehow. He was still trying to live down the effects of the New Years Eve party and didn’t want to have a huge BBQ or party or anything like that. So we kept it low-key and it was nice. I went with Josh and M. It was a nice turnout considering it was totally thrown together at the last minute. Matt, Mike, Nate, Lisa Lum, Amy, Tripp, Tripp’s friend Andrea, and Kurt were all there and we grilled and hung out and drank. It was nice to see everyone again. We don’t have many get-togethers as frequently as we used to. Andrea was really sweet and cool. It was nice to have M there because she doesn’t really know many of my friends that well. She’s always been separate from them, not purposefully, but we seem to always hang out with just us two instead of with big crowds. I am glad she was finally able to hang out with a lot of them, even though she has met them before. It was just a bit more social and intimate this time and it allowed her to get to know them better. I’m all about bringing friends together. Our conversations were very interesting, to say the least. I was finally able to eat a hamburger, though I had to chew it with my front teeth. I was starving and needed to eat real food.

We stopped by Bob's place (purple t-shirt guy), who is a friend of Josh's in his Animation program. There were a lot of people there that I knew that were in the program also and it was comfortable and nice to just chill. They played video games and drank as I sat and watched in a sedated state. It looked like a lot of fun because they were playing Super Smash Brothers but my hand and eye coordination was not very good. I want an emulator so I can play all of the fun games that I used to play on my Super Nintendo. Hopefully Josh and I will get one soon.

The weekend has been very nice and relaxing. I did have a few extra days because of the surgery, but I am afraid to go back to work because I know that it will be really busy tomorrow. It’s always busy after a holiday. But I will have to grin and bear it and hopefully it won’t be that bad. I still have some pain killers left and I will use them if I have to, but only at nighttime before I go to bed. I know that my sleep schedule is totally off, but the pain is slowly subsiding, so I think that I will be okay, hopefully.

:D S&TC quote of the day:
“Delicious, exactly what I wanted. I couldn't get enough.” – Carrie (Season 6 – Let There Be Light)

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