Sam's Blog

There are many things that make me happy at this very moment. Daffodil days for Cancer Awareness, spicy laht-nah from Noodle Planet, John Digweed, cheap vintage stores, lunch with friends, Josh, vintage leather jackets, Pepsi, sunshine, coffee, reading Tripp’s book, knitting, talking to friends online and on the phone, running into friends and hanging out with them, and my coworkers.

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I had lunch with Angela today. She was so calm and happy. It was as if a heavy weight had been lifted off of her shoulders. She had decided to go back to school and the thought of not working seemed fabulous to me and to her as well. I am so happy for her because she genuinely seems content. I started to think more about school and why I wasn’t even planning on going back yet. It’s actually pretty simple…I don’t want to go back. I am simply not compelled to do so. Everyone keeps asking me about law/grad/(fill in the blank) school and I tell them that I don’t want to go back yet. For some reason, that’s not a good enough answer. To me, it’s all that I need to know. Why torture myself in school and hate every minute knowing that I do not want to be there? It’s one of the major choices that I’ve made for myself as an adult. I guess working fulltime isn’t as impressive as it used to be. And apparently a bachelor’s degree doesn’t go that far anymore either. I know that school and I will get back together again someday. I am just calling this a “break” for now. And who knows…maybe I will never want to go back. I guess we will see.

M and I were talking about so many similar things over dinner tonight. I can’t believe that she is working fulltime and going to graduate school at the same time. Luckily she is on spring break right now so she can take a breather. She has such a drive that allows her to run around and get her (second) master’s degree and work the same amount of hours as me. It makes me feel lazy and also fortunate that she has set aside time every week to hang out with me. I should be doing more. I just haven’t figured out what that is yet. I really don’t want to grow up yet.

SATC quote of the day:
Charlotte: We're having Trey's sperm tested.
Miranda: Is it not doing well in school? (Season 4 – Belles of the Balls)