Sam's Blog

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Yesterday got progressively better and better as the hours passed. It started off with horrible news about a train crash in Glendale. Shahab Imed me and told me about it because his aunt was on the train. She luckily only had a couple of bruises and wasn't badly hurt. But I worry about the others on there. My heart goes out to them and their families, especially those that were killed.

Jon and I went to a screening of Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind last night (thanks Alexis!) and on the way there, we were talking about the guy that caused the train incident. Apparently, he wanted to commit suicide and then changed his mind at the last minute and ran out of his SUV. Now I am sure the fact that he was suicidal meant that he was already having mental problems and couldn't probably grasp the fact that he would be possibly hurting others. I personally think that suicide is the most selfish thing you can do. But endangering the lives of others while committing suicide is just stupid. He obviously didn't think it through, which is probably why he chickened out. He stood there watching the trains collide and all of the devastation that ensued. It's just so sad. All I ask is that if you're gonna commit suicide, do it while you're alone and can't hurt any other people.

Anyway, we met up with Tripp and went to the screening. I fall in love with that movie every time I watch it. I can never get tired of it. I'm in love with Kate Winslet and I can't take my eyes off of her when she's on the screen. She is magically delicious. I was fighting to hold back tears because it’s my fourth time watching it and I always cry at the same scenes and I readied myself for them. It’s strange how thinking about a particular scene that has gotten me emotional, in any specific movie, can cause me to tear up. It’s amazing that they have such a great affect on me. Charlie Kaufman was there afterwards for a brief Q & A session. He was just what I expected. Awkward, yet funny. That’s all I can say. I am glad that I went and I am glad that Jon was able to come because I think that he loves the movie more than I do. I realized that Kaufman wrote for Ned and Stacey, a short-lived show that I thought was fabulous, but then it got cancelled. All the good ones get cancelled early. Sigh.

Jon introduced me to Abbot's Pizza Co. in the Abbot Kinney area in Venice. The pizza was yummy and the neighborhood is a quaint little place and I want to explore it more when I have time.

Josh and I just got back from a screening of Nobody Knows, the new Hirokazu Koreeda film about four kids that were left to live on their own after their mother abandoned them. Asian films are so damn depressing, really. It was so good and it affected me so much. I was sobbing in the theater. I haven’t sobbed in a movie in so long, but I am thinking that it was also because I was holding back so much during Eternal Sunshine last night. But it touches me so dearly and reminds me of how lonely I was when I was a kid. I flashed back to my childhood and couldn’t remember anything happy about it during the entire film. My childhood was full of happy memories, but not during the 141 minutes while I was watching this film. Koreeda is Josh’s favorite Japanese film director and most of his movies are dramas, but they are also comical as well. It’s overwhelming sometimes and I am forced to take a deep breath. But please watch it when it comes out next month.

I shouldn’t check my work email at home anymore. I always get bad news. I just found out that one of our patients passed away this morning. He was just in my clinic yesterday. I don’t know how much more of this I can handle. He wanted to live through March so he can see his wife and daughter’s birthdays. He had such a wonderful family. My heart breaks every time. I hate cancer.

I miss you Angela. I hope to see you soon and I hope Texas is treating you well.

SATC quote of the day:
“Mommy needs two hands to eat her eight-dollar cake!” -Miranda (Season 6- A Woman’s Right to Shoes)