Sam's Blog

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"Far above our heads are the icy heights that contain all reason."

The Shins have been rocking my world lately. Oh yeah!! I love, love, love their sound and their lyrics are crazily coherent. I have to thank Zach (Braff) for putting them on his movie’s soundtrack (Garden State). I’ve heard their music before, but the fact that it’s on the soundtrack turned me into a huge fan. My mood has been mellow. I made mix CDs for M and Angela the other day and I called them the "Driving Mix," because I wanted them to listen to it while they drive, since they do it so much for work. I've gotten positive feedback and I listened to one this morning and you know what? It's damn good. I'm impressed at myself I guess because it's a lot better than I thought it was going to be. It put me into the best mood on the way to work this morning. Lovely!!

Angela has the Westside for her new territory for work next year. I am elated. This means that we can meet up for lunch at least once a week! So very, very, very excited. She has picked up knitting and is learning pretty fast. I want to learn too and Kurt mentioned that he would try to help me as well. Yay!! I love learning new things. Especially if it involves anything that I can wear. Apparently it has become a big thing to do during classes. Funny. I usually take notes during lectures, but hey, whatever works.

I’ve had many conversations these past few days about many different things. I am convinced that I care about people too much. I care about what they think, what they think of me, and how they are doing. I wonder if they think of me the same way. But I thought that I was over the part where I wonder what others thought of me. I thought I gave that up a few years ago, especially after college. But I still see remnants of me wondering about stupid things like that. Why do I bother? I still don’t know. I know that I am better at the not caring part; at least it doesn’t consume me. I would like to think that I am the type of person where the motto, “you get what you see” applies. I hate complexity. I love simplicity. Though I know that every individual is complex, but there are those that hide so many things. I am not a big fan of that and I try not to do that myself. I am straightforward and sometimes almost too honest for my own good. That’s just me I guess.

As more and more people graduate, move away, or become busy with their lives, why does it still suck so much when we lose touch? And why does it happen? I try the best I can to keep in touch as much as possible, but sometimes my efforts aren’t that great either. I would love to see as many people as I can and do as many things as I want, but there is a price. Usually its sleep related. I haven’t had an 8-hour sleep during the weekday since the last time I was sick, which was a few months ago. So sad. But not really though. At least I am using that time wisely I suppose. I’m not dicking around and wasting time watching TV (though there are times when I do enjoy it). I’m actually doing stuff with my friends/boyfriend/coworkers. It makes it all worth it, though the lack of sleep does catch up to me eventually.

I had a conversation with Lisa about relationships/love/lust/sex/idealism/dating and I’m sure a few other things too. It’s funny how cynical I am. But we both agreed that there are way too many girls that are too idealist about love. It’s partially because the media plays into the whole “knight in shining armor” and “damsel in distress” situations. I’m over that. Perhaps I’ve been in a relationship for too long and now my perceptions are all skewed. This is probably why I enjoyed watching Closer. It was real. There was no "happily ever after," because in life, there are some relationships that don't end up that way.

A big thanks to Roni for the Sex and the City Trivia Game. It was a pleasant surprise when I got home from work. I never get packages, so I just assumed that it was for Josh. But yay! Anyone down for a round of trivia? I don’t know what anyone is doing after New Year’s, but I usually kick the year off with a Sex and the City marathon and since the second part of season 6 will be out on December 29th, we can watch the series in its entirety, including the 3 alternate endings. “I’m so excited!! I’m so…scared.” (Hi-five if you got that reference). Speaking of Saved by the Bell, Nate cracks me up. I’m about to leave work and Nate calls me and asks, “Hey, what was the song that was in the background when Kelly breaks up with Zach?” The sad thing was that I knew the answer. And I told him that it was “How am I Suppose to Live Without,” by Michael Bolton (the no-talent ass clown, heh). But the sadder thing was that he KNEW that I would know the answer, which was why he called me. So sad. But I did love the show, even though in hindsight, it was awful.

Just had dinner with M at the new Barney’s Beanery on 3rd Street Promenade. It’s a huge establishment with EVERYTHING on the menu. It was yummy and we ran into Alexis there! A very pleasant coincidence indeed. Well, all I have to say is that I cannot believe that Christmas is next week!